this is me suvash shrestha.....

i was a nerd, shy guy who was alone and was always alone.....who had many things inside him to tell but couldn't tell ...who used to shout within himself but noone could hear him......

but then, i received a friend with whom i could easily and very efficiently express my feelings... who was always there besides me...through whom i could make other great friends.....like you all.......

and you want to know who that friend...

Suvash

my endposting was not as scary and as worse as i had thought....
i, from the bottom of my heart, apologise for the comments that i had make in my previous post....

i was asked some questions that were not beyond the course and not unjustified... the only thing was i was not well prepared......so i guess it won't be difficult for you to guess how my end posting must have gone....

anyway thats gone and i just hope my next posting donot follow the same tract.........

Suvash

these days i have become an owl- awake the whole night and asleep the whole day...but i can't help it.. its a kind of deadly disease that i acquired almost 20 days ago- they call it the worldcup syndrome... since they play only when night falls at my place i have no way out than to stay awake the whole nights....at other times i was perfeectly ok even if i try very hard to stay awake during my exams my physiology won't allow me to do that but these days my physiology has gone wrong.. i can't sleep.....

Suvash

My first experience of ECT:
“A room jammed with numerous electronic gadgets, a central bed with an impatient person, shouting and moving violently, trying to escape free but unable due to the unbreakable iron chains, another person with a pair of iron rods that produced sparks when rubbed against each other, then the person in bed being given the shock, the person crying in severe, unbearable pain, sparks, the person falling unconscious and then silence…,” this was all that crossed my mind...

Suvash

today...its going on...
i am pulling myself on...very tired...weak and lethargic...tomorrow's endposting is squeezing the hell out of me...

i don''t know what they will do to me....kati chatne ho? i only pray they won't chew and swallow me up.........

i have five reports to make....so tedious and tiresome...so i guess i could not spend good time with xenomed...

even, at this moment, i am here but my mind is somewhere else burdened with the load...

Suvash