That day is still in my memories. Its the truth that its very painful to apart from the loved one though it seems to be easy in the begining.
As the cold of the merciless day had pierced through my skin, the agony was burning my heart. As i walked, the steps was getting heavier and the floor seemed to crumble down, the way i had never felt before.My eyes were wide open but i couldn't see, my heart was beating but i was totally numb.
In a confused state of mind with shaking legs and heavy heart i finally returned home alone saying goodbye to a loved one.I had wondered was it really a last goodbye and i wonder the same still!
I had read quite a longtime before, "mero sanu sathi" by Bhawani Bhikschu. I felt the same way. Like a child i wanted to cry, just cry and say don't go but as a grown up i can't coz i know i shouldn't. In fact, i was pretending to be mature and was crushing my feelings, controlling my emotions.
As the cold of the merciless day had pierced through my skin, the agony was burning my heart. As i walked, the steps was getting heavier and the floor seemed to crumble down, the way i had never felt before.My eyes were wide open but i couldn't see, my heart was beating but i was totally numb.
In a confused state of mind with shaking legs and heavy heart i finally returned home alone saying goodbye to a loved one.I had wondered was it really a last goodbye and i wonder the same still!
I had read quite a longtime before, "mero sanu sathi" by Bhawani Bhikschu. I felt the same way. Like a child i wanted to cry, just cry and say don't go but as a grown up i can't coz i know i shouldn't. In fact, i was pretending to be mature and was crushing my feelings, controlling my emotions.
that cold day...
Posted 09-03-2008 at 11:32 AM by snow
Its the truth that its very painful to apart from the loved one though it seems to be easy at the begining. I realized it that day and surrendered myself to fate.
As the cold had pierced into my skin, the agony was burning my heart. As i walked, my steps were getting heavier and the floor seemed to crumble down. My eyes were wide open, but i couldn't see. My heart was beating, but i was totaly numb.In a confused state of mind i said goodbye and returned home with shaking legs, heavy heart and with a feeling of loneliness and emptiness. I had wondered that was it really the last goodbye and i still wonder the same.
I had read quite a long time before, ' mero sanu sathi" by Bhawani Bhikschu. I felt the same way. I wanted to cry, just cry and say don't go. But i coudn't let my heart out as i understand that i shouldn't be weak being a grown up. I was crushing my feelings, controlling my emotions to act as a mature one and may be not to show an unhappy face to the departing eye.
As the cold had pierced into my skin, the agony was burning my heart. As i walked, my steps were getting heavier and the floor seemed to crumble down. My eyes were wide open, but i couldn't see. My heart was beating, but i was totaly numb.In a confused state of mind i said goodbye and returned home with shaking legs, heavy heart and with a feeling of loneliness and emptiness. I had wondered that was it really the last goodbye and i still wonder the same.
I had read quite a long time before, ' mero sanu sathi" by Bhawani Bhikschu. I felt the same way. I wanted to cry, just cry and say don't go. But i coudn't let my heart out as i understand that i shouldn't be weak being a grown up. I was crushing my feelings, controlling my emotions to act as a mature one and may be not to show an unhappy face to the departing eye.
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