Was i made to be a doctor?
When i wrote 'about a guy' about my one close friend and posted it to the xenomed, it was his reaction, he wrote to me this:
Today is November 23, 2007. If I count my exact age, I became 27 year, 3 month and 25 days old. When I think about the achievement I got in my life during these years, I found nothing. I have not done anything good to myself, my family, society and country.
Neither I become a good man in my own sense, nor I could become a good son to my parent, nor could I become a good citizen to my country. I can not mention any thing, except a MBBS degree, that too, I got with the money, my parents paid for my donation to the medical college. I want to imagine, where would be I am, if my parents were not capable of investing millions of money and not forced me to study medicine. Couldn’t have I get more success in other field of my interest than becoming a doctor? To be a doctor was never my dream. Actually my dream was to be a pilot or to be a very successful singer since my early childhood. Later, I developed interest on photography, documentary and travel journalism.
Still today, I have great passion for singing and I love doing photography, making documentary and traveling .I always keep singing to myself and I always turn my eye upward in the sky , whenever I heard the sound of a plane or a helicopter , and my eyes get stick to it unless it get vanished in the horizon. So these things always attracted my mind while I was doing my MBBS. I used to fulfill my passion of singing, by singing in the college and university programs and occasionally in the various medical conferences. And I used to fill my passion of flying plane, by watching towards the cockpit, while occasionally on board. May be because medicine was not my interest I couldn’t do well in my MBBS which I passed 2 year back except passing regularly with above average marks.
It was 9 years back, when the private medical colleges in Nepal were just starting to open; the title doctor was great thing of attraction among people, because of the social status and the high amount of money doctors used to earn as compared to other profession at that time. So because of these attractions, I too decided to study medicine, throwing my desire of long time to be a pilot and singer to one corner of my mind. At that time a pilot used to had great difficulty to get a job, because there was only the then RNAC to run aviation service in Nepal, a singer couldn’t have survived only by singing, and I even didn’t think that documentary making and travel journalism could be good professions too. Actually these professions didn’t had any scope in those days .This situation of that time also pushed me to study medicine unwillingly. But now everybody knows that the situation is different. I think for the today’s people, the medical profession is not the most attracting job.
After I couldn’t get admission in the scholarship program, during first attempt, my parents insisted me to get admit on donation, in one of the private medical college of Nepal, because they did not want t me to waste a year and they wanted to see their son to be a doctor soon.
I even joined for the music class during my first year which I later had to abort, when I was just learning ‘sa re ga ma’, after my parents scolded me, when they knew about it. And my still maturing brain couldn’t resist them.
Two years back, immediately after completing my MBBS, I decided to give the USMLE examination, again by attracting with money, the residents and consultant get there in the US. I am sure; it was the money which attracted me towards the USMLE. I usually realize that I was not made to study medicine. I don’t have any characters which a medical student should have. That’s why it’s been 2yrs that I sat for the USMLE preparation, and I have not given any part till now. The main reason for this delay is probably due to lack of dedication and hard work, which I should have done and most importantly lack of actual interest.
I am reading very irregularly now a days, usually getting distracted from my above mention interest and my several other hobbies which I couldn’t resist, whenever they come in front of me. Medicine is becoming like my part time profession.
Why this is happening? I think it is because; I studied medicine just for the sake of status and money, not caring my internal satisfaction.
Even though, what ever I mentioned above, I have spent considerable amount of time, energy and devoted myself to study medicine for about 6/7 years (though, most of the time with forceful mind). I am sure that if I had done equal work in the subject of my interest, I would have done much better. I could be a successful singer or a renowned travel journalist or a documentary film maker or a good pilot. At least, I wouldn’t have of feeling of worthlessness and frustration that I couldn’t do anything.
Every body who listened me singing says that my voice is very good. Those who see the picture taken by be saying that the ‘what a nice photo u have taken’ and those who watch my documentary comment that ‘it was really interesting.’ But during my 5& ½ years of MBBS, no teacher commented me saying ‘very good’ regarding my study. Except, they used to comment on my song, saying ‘that was really nice, why shouldn’t’ u record songs of your own?’
. When I do the above mentioned things of my interest, I enjoy them, do it from my heart and I never feel bored but when I have to study my text book , I have to force my mind towards it.
So, I frequently asked to myself that “was I made to be a doctor or to be some other professionals?”
Today is November 23, 2007. If I count my exact age, I became 27 year, 3 month and 25 days old. When I think about the achievement I got in my life during these years, I found nothing. I have not done anything good to myself, my family, society and country.
Neither I become a good man in my own sense, nor I could become a good son to my parent, nor could I become a good citizen to my country. I can not mention any thing, except a MBBS degree, that too, I got with the money, my parents paid for my donation to the medical college. I want to imagine, where would be I am, if my parents were not capable of investing millions of money and not forced me to study medicine. Couldn’t have I get more success in other field of my interest than becoming a doctor? To be a doctor was never my dream. Actually my dream was to be a pilot or to be a very successful singer since my early childhood. Later, I developed interest on photography, documentary and travel journalism.
Still today, I have great passion for singing and I love doing photography, making documentary and traveling .I always keep singing to myself and I always turn my eye upward in the sky , whenever I heard the sound of a plane or a helicopter , and my eyes get stick to it unless it get vanished in the horizon. So these things always attracted my mind while I was doing my MBBS. I used to fulfill my passion of singing, by singing in the college and university programs and occasionally in the various medical conferences. And I used to fill my passion of flying plane, by watching towards the cockpit, while occasionally on board. May be because medicine was not my interest I couldn’t do well in my MBBS which I passed 2 year back except passing regularly with above average marks.
It was 9 years back, when the private medical colleges in Nepal were just starting to open; the title doctor was great thing of attraction among people, because of the social status and the high amount of money doctors used to earn as compared to other profession at that time. So because of these attractions, I too decided to study medicine, throwing my desire of long time to be a pilot and singer to one corner of my mind. At that time a pilot used to had great difficulty to get a job, because there was only the then RNAC to run aviation service in Nepal, a singer couldn’t have survived only by singing, and I even didn’t think that documentary making and travel journalism could be good professions too. Actually these professions didn’t had any scope in those days .This situation of that time also pushed me to study medicine unwillingly. But now everybody knows that the situation is different. I think for the today’s people, the medical profession is not the most attracting job.
After I couldn’t get admission in the scholarship program, during first attempt, my parents insisted me to get admit on donation, in one of the private medical college of Nepal, because they did not want t me to waste a year and they wanted to see their son to be a doctor soon.
I even joined for the music class during my first year which I later had to abort, when I was just learning ‘sa re ga ma’, after my parents scolded me, when they knew about it. And my still maturing brain couldn’t resist them.
Two years back, immediately after completing my MBBS, I decided to give the USMLE examination, again by attracting with money, the residents and consultant get there in the US. I am sure; it was the money which attracted me towards the USMLE. I usually realize that I was not made to study medicine. I don’t have any characters which a medical student should have. That’s why it’s been 2yrs that I sat for the USMLE preparation, and I have not given any part till now. The main reason for this delay is probably due to lack of dedication and hard work, which I should have done and most importantly lack of actual interest.
I am reading very irregularly now a days, usually getting distracted from my above mention interest and my several other hobbies which I couldn’t resist, whenever they come in front of me. Medicine is becoming like my part time profession.
Why this is happening? I think it is because; I studied medicine just for the sake of status and money, not caring my internal satisfaction.
Even though, what ever I mentioned above, I have spent considerable amount of time, energy and devoted myself to study medicine for about 6/7 years (though, most of the time with forceful mind). I am sure that if I had done equal work in the subject of my interest, I would have done much better. I could be a successful singer or a renowned travel journalist or a documentary film maker or a good pilot. At least, I wouldn’t have of feeling of worthlessness and frustration that I couldn’t do anything.
Every body who listened me singing says that my voice is very good. Those who see the picture taken by be saying that the ‘what a nice photo u have taken’ and those who watch my documentary comment that ‘it was really interesting.’ But during my 5& ½ years of MBBS, no teacher commented me saying ‘very good’ regarding my study. Except, they used to comment on my song, saying ‘that was really nice, why shouldn’t’ u record songs of your own?’
. When I do the above mentioned things of my interest, I enjoy them, do it from my heart and I never feel bored but when I have to study my text book , I have to force my mind towards it.
So, I frequently asked to myself that “was I made to be a doctor or to be some other professionals?”
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Comments
 |  Hi Nature. It was nice to read the this blogs from ur friend. I think its never late to start the things one want. i have see people changing doctor profession and going to other and doing very well. If one is not made to be a doctor he defiantely is made for something else and i personally think its never late at 28 or 30 to join Aviation and become a pilot or start sing for Nepali Ideol and get lots of money and lots of fans too. Ok tell you friend that its never late |
Posted 29-11-2007 at 08:15 AM by SJKalu  |
| |  Great Piece of Blogging "Nature" - Keep it up !Great, Excellent musings over your professions and activities! Great piece of Blog! Real blogging! I’m really impressed with your subtle analysis and vivid presentations of your thoughts, activities and conditions. It is really great to read such blogs from a person who knows his background, his status, has preview of future and knowledge of past. You have isolated what are the appropriate and what are inappropriate for yourself. You know nature, that’s how everything is done and taken. You know where you work better and you know which you enjoy most. You know what are the things appreciated by the people around you when you do that and you have attitude, passion, zeal and interest to follow the importance of them. They are the basics, pillars and most important foundations of a man to be successful and you have it. You have quality of understanding, analyzing and deciding. That’s it Nature. Your nature is natural and great! Keep up the good work. There are no hard and fast rule that one can’t have nose dive in his/her life. There is none who will not be pissed of once or twice in life, in fact it happens time and again. As far as your involvement in medicine is concerned, that’s great involvement in your life. It will surely be a great edge for you whatever you do in the future. You are even more smart to go with USMLE preparation and think about it. That’s fantastic. Great exposure! It doesn’t matter what you do and which field you get involved in. You have that quality to lead career, as you have written here and expressed your intent. I have posted one news here in Xenomed. I just want you to through if you wish. http://www.xenomed.com/forums/jobs-o...tml#post127817 I am sure you will be a great person wherever you go and whatever you do. It is also very sure that you will do what makes you happy. Best of Luck, Best wishes, mati |
| Posted 01-12-2007 at 09:23 AM by Mati Updated 01-12-2007 at 09:54 AM by Mati |
| |  Hey nature, it was ur destiny to become a doctor & thats it. Your real passion is singing & you can continue the singing too side by your studies. You sing quite well, we all know about it but at this moment ur carrier is the most important thing that you have to focuss, so for a moment leave all these things beside & just concentrate in ur studies. After you clear the USMLE, definitely you can continue with all ur passion in the leisure time. This is the most imp. phase of ur life as at this moment you can give a new direction to ur life. Leave everything beside, & study, study..... as there is no choice. You have already spent ur 5 & a half years, now plez spend some more yrs in ur studies and after that u can carry with ur own passion. Anyways! I think you are definitely made to be a doctor and its a great combination of a doctor, singer, poet, photographer & a nice human being ....... U are so lucky to be blessed with all these qualities. |
| Posted 13-12-2007 at 08:45 AM by Khushboo |
| |  HI nature. I think the matter that you presented occurs often in everyone's life. Nature, everybody is unique and has special qualities that no other could copy exactly. It was amazing to know your friend's tallents and desire. As far as i think. you dont have to quit your profession to carry on your hobbies. Like Dr Bhola Rijal is doing great both in his profession and music. Or Da Vinci who was multitalented and was sucessful in so many vast fields. So my friend keep it up continue your passion but dont forget to manage them to suit your time. So be happy,man as you are blessed so much. YOu dont need to score the highest in the medical tests.what it matters is your ability to understand patient and deal with them. medical profession is the best. Man can you feel how much joy it brings to your heart when you could help people ease the pain? Or the blessings they bestowed upon you.its far worth than the money.It's what it motivate doctors. believe me you were meant to be doctor.i think your gifts are the next approach to the medicine. what i suggest you is that try to find the joy in the field u r in.there certainly is very special place for you in medicine.Regarding aviation, you can achieve the experience playing flight stimulator games.Who knows may b you need to fly planes someday.so its good to have knowledge as much as u can and in various fields. One last suggestion! Man if you r thinking about swithching profession because of the money you better think twice. Cuz money cant satisfy you for long. so be still and focus on what you have ahead but dont kill your hobby. Maybe i got chance to view your presentations someday in future. best of luck for your preparation Try to find joy in what you are doing.then things will b bit easier. With wishes aashish |
| Posted 04-04-2008 at 06:07 AM by giriaashish |
| | Thanks a lot all of you- sjkalu, mati, khusboo, giri aashish! All of your commens are so realistic ,encorgaing and consoling....I will definately convey this to my friend and ask him to do , what you people are suggesting.... Thanks a lot once again for commenting..... |
| Posted 19-04-2008 at 08:33 AM by Nature |
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